FOOTBALL FEVER-FIFA 2018 -Goal of Joy.

On a drizzling morning I woke up to a different contagious feel in Darjeeling. At first I felt it was the saturday mood on a vacational trip. It was mesmerising to see the different hues of grey & white clouds. The early rays of light hustling through the status clouds. As the city rises to the mantra chanting from the temples and the trumpets of the monastries. The Queen of Hills, Darjeeling witnessed an enigmatic aura. A dreamy state of ecstasy. It could be felt in the cold air. While sipping through the aromatic native tea on the terrace which overlooked the Joy Ride Train's track twinned with the roads, a large group of enfield bikers were zooming through the streets. The thing that caught my attention was the beautiful flags of different nations that were participating in FIFA 2018 World Cup were being flaunted by these supporters on bikes. The sight was so unusual that I could help looking at the roads and those bikers. Every nation was represented with utmost zeal.

Speed couldn't match the sight. So couldnt see much of it from the terreca. In the later part of thr day while exploring the city, it so happened that there was a huge traffic jam. Being on legs was the best thing. While we were zig-sagging through the narrow roads this time I could see hundreds of bikers from close quaters flaunting their favourite teams. Stranded in the traffic the long trail was followed by a small powerful pack of children in their eco-friendly bicycles. Age was no barrier for displaying their love and support for their respective teams. I just loved the vibes that was struck in that air of congestion.

On reaching the mall road, the big surprise of our lives awaited us. It was the craze beyond measures for the sport that is played accrossed nations, the sport played on the paddy fields to the school backgrounds, on the streets to the residential gardens, it is rightly called the game of the comman man- FOOTBALL.

Live concert with bands, singers, dancers, stuntman and other performers to enthrill the audience which included from school kids to grannies. All of them vouched their love for teams. The wavering flags although of different colours, they all looked no different to a bystander like me who was immersed in that intoxicating ambience. The polarity only existed in the names of the nations everything other duality ceased to exist.

No wonder India surprises me in many ways. A country were you tend to see people still banking on casteism, religious differences, colour prejudices, economical disparity and discrimination among its own compatriots. Darjeeling on the otherhand showed unparallel enthusiasm and momentum for the FIFA, in which India didnt even qualify for the finals.

I believe the innocence of life lies in being a child. Seeing houses, cars, building, shops and streets all geared up for the sport somehow rekindles the hope for a compassionate & loving world, a world that sees through the differences, a world that embraces the polarities without judgements and a world that accepts the essence of freedom without boundaries.

A quintessential town nestling in the Himalaya's mighty lap shows to the people at large that the quest for a world without boundaries can very much be a reality.

Fear of Losing.....

The fear of losing....
Deep down we all know nothing is for ever. Yet the hope that we will live forever makes us thrive. Gets us going. Compels us to take new challenges. Calculate certain risks and work on building relationship.

The unsung words of a moment well passed by the twilight zone.
I, still in silence contemplating the loses and recollecting the time I felt I need no more.

Love thrives with a passion to love that was , is or maybe mine.
In the soul's window to the heart's room I get to sneak through the forgotten doors.

That one precious moment where I could smell the freshness as vividly as wild- gets stolen in no time into the eternal whirls of gushing Light.

 The Light- Shining Bright today into my eyes
 when I stand amist the lane of quintessential
tranquil so live.
A soft whisper in the wind tells me its time to say my final Good Bye.

We all know one day we all have to say to our loved ones good byes. Somehow this fear compels us to web a matrix around us. The matrix that makes us believe that we are here forever. Now if we go deeper into human psyche we understand that its a mechanism of our species to contain our fears but the irony is that inspite this belief, all our aspirations, desires, work and relationships are nurtured around this fear.
Well this is Maya the Matrix in other words. Maya feeds on our attachments, our beliefs and our fears. In this context then is this 'Fear' for real? What stands for reality?  That which we know or that which we believe?

For that answer we need to first question from where this fear originates? Is it because we were in a situation and that caused an impression of fear or is it in-built in us from time immortal?
Well psychologists says its an emotion that helps us keep at bay the dangers to our survival. But isnt it the same emotion that forces us to do things which we would otherwise hadnot done?
In a way this fear originates from our belief. How? Lets see it in this way. Fear if is a consequence of a situation or circumtance then it must have created an idea that it is not good and that which is not good is bad and that which is bad can be harmful and that which is harmful is a threat to our lives.
On the other hand lets say we were born with this fear of unknown. Then that fear got momemtum only because we believe that which is unknown could be harmful and that which is harmful is again a threat to our lives.

Believing gives us a sense of knowning. Knowing of the known or the unknown is that which leads to FEAR OR BLISS. Sometimes we all wish we had no knowing and hence no fear. Thus comes the Matrix that is build on the belief that there is nothing to lose still somewhere lurks the knowing that believes there is all to lose. In between the twilight zone of believing and knowing we head on an unknown road that comes with a sign board which reads- FEAR OF LOSING .... that which we NEVER OWN.

Evolution Through Contradiction

                                                      Evolution Through Contraction

While jolting through the everyday errands of life. All of us come across situations which are just simply the way we wanted but most often we come across things which are just not what we ever wanted. Well this has been the case with me for a long time now. getting into situations , people and places which i ever least expected. while walkin through it all i realised those were part of a plan yet there are some which are still as mysterious to me as the concept of black hole. what is more frustrating is that those unanswered questions keeps haunting repeatedly. sometimes some event act like a trigger to shot off a cycle of such frustrating trail of questionnaires that the whole life seems to come to a stand still. 

The question is why me? When you are having intentions of peace, joy and happiness at the end of the day. Then why do u end up feeling all of this less than ever more. It is said prayers are answered. Well , of course it is. then why such contrasting situations.and why the hell only me? IS IT DESTINY OR FREE WILL.? WHICH ONE OF THE TWO PLAYS A MAJOR ROLE IN OUR LIVES. coming back to faith , it is said faith can move mountains, how to hold on to your faith when the whole world seems to be a place of constant fight, of CONTRASTING MOMENTUM. 

According to vedic philosophy life is a 3D matrix, which is a projection of our own intentions desires and resulting manifestations. The collective consciousness makes this matrix work. then why it is so that in spite of having the desires it not always fulfilled ? In spite of having the best of intentions it is not fruitful.? What is the blocks the manifestations of the desired intentions.

Do i know the answer to all these questions? Buddha said the desire to not to have a desire will lead to happiness. A famous quote by Ashleigh Brilliant "why does life keep teaching me lessons I have no desire to learn".

SO NOW WHERE DO ME STAND? in the two opposing league. where we know the distinction of both the ways.  here lies the three way zone to introspect and to arrive at an answer. 
1)Contradiction arrives when efforts are made for a projection to come to life.
2)Freewill is the constant battle that goes within one's self
3)Destiny the parallel quatum of time space reality

So when we are constantly obsessed with an idea OR when a desires arrives , what we face is opposing conditions. now the true meaning of life is just to have an experience. THESE CONTRASTING OR CONTRADICTIONS IN OUR MOMENTUM GIVES AN EXPERIENTIAL UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT WE ARE WANTING. But what happens here is we get so much caught into the situation , the way to experiencing it for understanding the feelings , the emotions and the wisdom is building inside is often neglected. we are all conditioned in such a way that we start taking life too seriously. have made all the things in life a MUST that MUST is the cause of suffering amongst the masses. when a soul is unhappy within , it will reciprocate the same to others. we get into the matrix of others projections in those situations not realising that what we desired is manisfesting first through contradiction . so that the collect consciouness go so strong that there remains No Desire But a knowing that it has happened and what is happening is for the better. let it flow dont resist. Being a witness to one's own black and white shades and hvin the conviction of ur conscience for ur deeds that is real spiritual experience of being human..

freewill is our choices that we make during those contrasting situations. now that is controversial too , are we really making choices or merely playing the parts which is already played in the time space quatum?
destiny is the faith that things are already fixed , its done in the space where there is no time. time is an illusion  Nuture- Loving Kindness.. Living The Buddha way!
I learned that we come across situation and persons that reflects a whole new dimension to lookin at life, sometimes worse than our dreaded dream.. Forgive, let go bcoz they r ignorant of their actions.. Practice livin, breathin, talkin,doin with Awareness & compassion that ensures love not hurt, smile not tears, joy not fear for self and others..Nothin stays forever bcoz forever is time bound which is relative.. Miracles Happen Everyday bcoz Change is Only Constant,. Just Breathe in The Now. Overthinking spoils the connection with our inner higher conscious, everything good or bad is a lesson for our physical evolution no matter what we chose we all shall reach our perfect destination no matter how much time it takes.. Only hv pure intentions, seek for guidance from divine intelligence, be gentle hv compassion be in love and see innocence then u shall see the same blossoms in others..